I used to love Christmas. It was my favorite time of year. I would look forward to it with excitement each year. Christmas is a magical family time. Getting together with the family to celebrate the birth of Jesus, and the love of family. What a wonderful experience it was. ]
Now, the holidays are lonely. I adore the time with my child, but the time alone just makes me realize how truly alone I actually am. The decorations mock me. The walls close in. Shopping is painful. Having to watch all the happy families joyously picking out gifts for their loved ones. I go through the motions, getting gifts for family and friends, all the while I know I am going home alone. No one to talk to, no one to love me. Just me and my decorations and walls.
World Reconnected
This blog is about a divorce woman learning to live again after spending over a decade in an oppressive marriage, raising a child alone, becoming a successful business woman, and following God's path.
Saturday, December 24, 2011
Monday, December 19, 2011
About Life Restarted
Three years ago this week, my divorce was finalized. 11 1/2 years of marriage obliterated. I was reconnected to the world again. I had to learn how to live again. I had to survive in a whole new world. I felt free, but scared. After being unappreciated and neglected for years, I had to find my way back to me again. "Who am I?" I knew one thing for sure. I was a mom! I am a mom! I had to learn to survive for him. So I spread my winds, and tried to fly. I have crashed and rolled many times, but now I believe I am reconnected to the world, to God. Now, I know who I am, and what I want from life, but now I am alone.
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